RTR (Road to recovery)

I am currently fighting what I think is post partum depression and I have been for since my Pay-Pay was born.  I finally have insurance and is now getting the help I need. I dont have a support system here that I feel I rely on, so I am happy that I have a doctor that I can rely on and the meds to help me build my "internal support system". We are getting my head right then work on the outside (my weight). So On my weight loss blog I will be blogging about my RTR.

Looking for jobs with no experience, brings in ego bashing rejection!! Oh well, Ill keep trucking along.

The girls are MONSTERS LOL. Its natural and I have a way to cope with the stress of raising them. Pay-Pay is learning from the best and she is not holding back when it comes to being bad. LOL

Samanthas bday is this Sunday!!! Cant believe 3 years old!!! :) WOW shes growing up so fast. Were having her party on Sat. Shes excited!!

I have been super busy too. Busy bags for a group of moms in the area and we meet up tomorrow. Im not done with them and thats what Im  going tobe working on into the night. I am also crocheting some pieces for one of the moms in exchange for a photo shoot. Her portraits are great and cant wait for her to capture some beautiful photos of my family. :)

update.

Well my little Payton turned one yesterday. We had her party on Saturday and had fun. Sams birthday is in 3 weeks or so and shell be 3 years old. She is in dance class now and loves it.

These are the pictures that I got of Miss Payton. Such a dollbaby. err Dollgirl LOL. I love you Miss Payton and you have made my life so bright from the day you were born.

She also has her first tooth, too.

Now onto other matters. We are just having it rough now. Money issues are just so burdensome. Trying to remain optimistic and everything, but sometimes I just want to crawl into a hole and stay. I have been trying to get a job, but they all want experience. How can I get experience if I can't get a job?!? Oh well.  All this stress is taking its toll on me. I am also feeling stuck. Lonely and sometimes miserable with the same thing everyday. Lack of a support system and girlfriends to go out and just relax with and talk makes it where I feel alone. This also brings up other issues and decisions I feel like its looming over my head. To do or not to do?! Will I be better off and happier?! Keeps me up most nights. Im agitated and always feel terrible. Oh well, life goes on and I will get over everything and anything~ I have in the past. Ill keep pushing forward and hope for the best, since that is all I can do. :) Hope everyone is staying cool this summer and getting geared up for the school season!! :)